Not Well

Saya demam, batuk, selsema

demam lagi, dan lagi dan lagi.

Ada banyak benda saya nak kena buat.. tetapi saya sakit!

Arghhhhhhhhhhh...............

What A Question

"Do you like me?"

And I said, "No."

"No! You don't like me."

Padan dengan muka. Tanya lagi soalan bijak. Intelligent question deserves intelligent answer. PADAN MUKA. Kenapa mengada sangat, tak taulah. Padan dengan muka. Padan muka!

Allergic?

As of tonight, my eyes are currently red, itchy and watery. MAJOR IRRITATION, people! Dunno if this is an allergic reaction to the Kerang Rebus Serai that I ate at dinner. Selama ni okay je.. tak pernah pula macam ni... eeeeeee rimasnya! Tak taulah because of that or the weather. As it is, sekejap panas terik and the next moment hujan lebat, sudden drop of temperature... and really low. Sejuk tau..

Gone Case II

Hmm, dia ni memanglah jenis tak reti bahasa betul. Masih lagi call I, walaupun pada hakikatnya I dah tak pernah pick up his calls. Kalau missed calls notification tu, nama dia memang GERENTI ada punya. Betul-betul menyakitkan hati.. ish.. bila dah sakit hati tu, terbayang lah muka dia yang asyik keluar dalam paper kat business section tu.. heiii BERTAMBAH sakit hati ni. Agaknya reporter yang edit news dia tu sampai berapa hari hilang selera makan. Bilalah dia ni nak faham bahasa agaknya. Agaknya b*d*h masa kecik dulu belum hilang-hilang lagi... must be lah...

Gone Case

Why I say he is such a crazy man? Because.. well here's why.

Please bear in mind that since knowing him (and that was like, five years back) I TAK PERNAH have any feelings for him. Not one teeny tiny dot. Okay? Do not ask me why I have never had any feelings for him. Benda ni dia sendiri-sendiri. Simply put, kalau berkenan, berkenanlah. Kalau dah sekali tak berkenan, takyah lah nak try-try hari lain. I ni jenis yang kalau dah tak berkenan tu, tidaklah. Kalau suka, tak payah bersuruh, kalau tak nak tak usahlah paksa. That's me. Zero-tolerance.

He has been in touch with me on and off , both in JB and KL. I do not mind having him as a friend or buddy. I did enjoy having him as friend. But that's all there's to it. Masalahnya... dia ni memang gila. Perasan pun ya. I do not need to go into details, tak nak lah spoil your appetite for life kan. Macamana I tak kata dia gila, kan. Bila kita tak pernah indicate directly or indirectly yang kita ni suka dia, macamana lah dia boleh tunjuk jual mahal? Siapa yang peduli?? Do you see what I am saying?

And that, coming from a man aged 39, Ya Allah... Heaven knows. He's been calling me frequently lately, from KL that is. When I started to feel rimas, I did things that were not to his liking, namely calling him at wee hours. Bukan niat nak cakap pun, saja dengki biar dia marah. A few days ago he sent me this sms:

"I dun like u call 1am or 3am or worst 5am. I also dun like when u dun answer n no returning my cal. Understd? Lastly i really dun like if u dun repeat the above mentioned."

To which I replied "very well then". Dia jawab plak "U dun like?" I said, "like what?" And he said "dun like wat i dun like u to do". Dengan penuh takzim, I replied back " 1. I do not understand. 2. I do not care. Wateva."

Ingat dah habislah. Takkk, semalam dia call lagi, nak provoke konon. Since yesterday I bolayan je. Tapi bukanlah nak berpatah arang ke apa. Sebab I rasa I dah boleh agak what he's up to. Tapi on my side, memanglah negative. So to me tak ada apa yang change, he is just still my friend. Tadi baru kejap ni dia call, I angkatlah. Nak tau kenapa I marah sangat?

Sebab tadi orang tua tu konon nak explain kenapa dia sms jangan call pagi-pagi buta. Siap kata, kalau I live in his neighbourhood, susahlah dia kalau I tiba-tiba knock his door pagi-pagi buta. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Hello, pakcik tua bangka, how much does it take for you to understand that orang tak SUKA you??? Do you need me to spell it out? Nak berleter pulak.. lupa ke, you yang sibuk call I selama ni, and not me? Tak ada siapa je perempuan yang nak ketuk pintu rumah you. 100% Guaranteed. Sekarang baru I faham betul kenapa at 39 you are STILL NOT MARRIED. Here's why :

"ITU KEPALA PUNYA DALAM, SATU BESAR PUNYA BATU JUGA SUDAH DALAM SANA DUDUK"

Him : Another You Part V

Hey, hey, hey you My Jedi Knight! This 'Him' I am talking about is so NOT ANOTHER YOU!

I just found out tonight. His attitude, like you put it, SUCKS!

And.. (nak mengadu lah ni).. he said so many mean things to me.. but.. I did not reciprocate.. I followed your advice.. be nice to people.. and it feels good everytime.. besides I tak sampai hati nak kutuk dia... memang banyak point boleh kutuk.. tapi it's okay.. Kasihan..tak apalah dia nak kata I katalah..I accept.

well he may say I ni stupid kan.. tak tau nak melawan.. tak apalah.. he's not from my league.. way, way too easy..kalau I hentam dia nanti tak boleh bangun lagi.. so.. I biarkan saja..

lagipun I kan angelic.. angels don't do such things, right regal sis?

It takes a Forbidden to know an Angel *wink*

by the way I have successfully defeated that so-called Another You.. hehehe see.. all too easy.

I am officially getting rid of him today.

Him : Another You Part IV

Boring... menyampah.. why do you have to be so overly sensitive and arrogant? Do you not realise that we are all human beings.. tak perlu nak berlagak.. semua pun HAMBA Allah. We are all servants, that's the reality.

I know not berapa lama lagi I can stand these things. Maybe I just keep quiet and let things pass. Tired lah.. so tired.. I have another examination coming.. am busy with readings and memorising. Though I am not really into the government sector, but I believe it is far better to read and gain knowledge than to wonder endlessly about you.I don't know what you are trying to show. I don't even know for sure. You are like.. so.. unstable. Your mind, that is. Though I am more than ten years younger but.. hey.. I am wiser.

And I told you repeatedly not to boast.. like tonight for example.. you said something you don't really mean. And when I press the matter, pandai pun you avoid.. See, honey I KNEW it.. I KNEW YOU DELIBERATELY SAID THAT, THAT WAS WHY I PRESSED ON IT. But you did not know that I knew, which was too bad. You have no way of knowing that I was laughing like hell after you went to bed. I know you are slowly getting addicted to having me around. I know I am angelic *wink* And I am very certain that, at home, whenever you are on your own, my words will keep ringing in your head. Well..he did not call me nightingale for nothing *winkie wink*

I told you I am far wiser. I think you underestimated the effect of The One. He is my master, my teacher. He is the only one I cannot defeat. At least not yet. In time, I will. I am very certain.

Him : Another You Part III

You are doing fine.. improving even better.. I am pleased with you now...

But please stop playing games.. because you do not know that i MAJOR in playing games... you may be way older, but I am way, way wiser.. FACE IT!

See, I know that it only took a little persuasion to put you right on track.

Just that, don't boast too much.. because where I am concerned, he who boasts will definitely eat his words back later.. *wink*

But still.. The Best Is The One. I dare to say this because I know you cannot read this, haha!

Wish I could publish your photo here.. but.. noooooo... too many prying eyes... so NO!

Yeah I dedicate the song Sometimes When We Touch To You, though.

-to be continued -

Him : Another You Part II

this is sincerely from me to you..

boleh tak jangan mengada-ngada.. tak payah nak prideful boleh tak? (how I wish you can read this)

I am tired of playing games.. you tu mengada-ngada sangat.. you need persuasion constantly and i am not in the habit of constantly persuading people.. I bukan jenis mengada-ngada.. i don't like to persuade nor do I like to be persuaded. RIMAS!

my yes means YES, my no means NO.. capisce?

what are u trying to prove? that you are hot properties? well, you don't say.. the only 'hot property' that I acknowledge is now in England... oh, that one is really hot.. so hot that he had to cool himself down in England hahah.

yeah, why should I lower down my guards with you? sorry man.. kalau you banyak cerita sangat, you boleh jalanlah.... I peduli apa.. I have known, seen and been with The Best. You are so fortunate that I did decide to entertain you, even as a friend. Even more so fortunate to get my mobile number. But you tu tak reti thankful.. The Best one tu pun tak cocky like you.. down-to-earth lagi ada lah..

From now on, it's always The Best. I will not consider anyone else. Only The Best. The One And Only.

I Think She Is Sick...

Earlier today I was so angry with a longtime friend. Extremely angry was more accurate, indeed. I told her repeatedly, for years, that I do not like to receive emails with horrifying content. Is that so difficult for her to comprehend?

Well, some of you may say this : "apa yang susah sangat, delete ajelah kalau tak nak baca. cakap dengan dia u tak suka". Simple enough. The problem is, this woman is either always that stupid or she did that just to annoy me.

Like today, my YM Mail Notification showed an email from her, so since I was chatting with her via YM, so I asked her directly what the content was. See, I've got this feeling from looking at the title that the content wasn't a pleasant one. She said "tak ada apa tu, tengok aje la.. don't worry la". She sounded so convincing. And I asked her again "betul, tak ada accident or cruelty to animal photos?" (sebab I memang pantang besar tengok benda-benda tu. Bukan takut, but it is such a sickness if you want to watch it deliberately). And she said "takde, bukak je la".Me, thinking that this, coming from a longtime friend, went ahead and read the mail. After taking a glance, I was really angry and annoyed beyond words. WHY?

Because.. the email was about people slaughtering cats.. and cooked them into various dishes. You tell me, how sickly that is.. complete with photos and all. Kemudian dia gelak gelak suka sebab berjaya kenakan I and I did view the photos. And this is not the first time she did this. What a sick thing to do. I love cats. I wouldn't dream to do any harm to cats. Or dogs. Or rabbits. Even as I was driving around the cities, if I pass a narrow road, or any village road, if I see any cats or dogs sitting right in the middle of the road, I will stop my car and either wait for it to move or I will get out of my car to shoo it away.

Last year, my brother accidentally hit my kitten as he was trying to reverse the car. I cried like hell, and felt upset for about a week. You see, I am not a crybaby. It is very, very difficult for anyone to see me shed a tear. Not even when there's someone passing. Never ever.

But I cannot stand to see animals suffer. Or babies. Or the elder citizens.

I am VERY angry with that woman now. So angry that I included her Yahoo ID in my ignore list and banned her email add from my Yahoo Mail. That's what happened if I am really angry at someone. I want NOTHING to do with that person.

I even told her that she was not even a woman, let alone a lady. Sorry to say that, even though she just gave birth to her first child. A woman, by nature, has fine feelings and high level of sensitivity. Especially a woman who has children. And please do not confuse independence with having a psychopatic nature.

Ya, memang I tak takut lah kalau ternampak real life accidents or anything. But that is ternampak. Lain cerita. Tapi, to actually deliberately viewing such emails repeatedly and then forward pula ke orang lain, I think that is a sign of a very disturbed mind. Do you know that if you have the tendency to watch such e-mails.. you know, the kind yang ada gambar accident ngeri.. or cruelty to animals.. if you memang tunggu-tunggu such emails kemudian suka pula nak share dan tunjuk pada orang lain solely for excitement, then you are indeed a very sick person. Because, if the sight of a tragedy excites you, if you love watching human or animals torn apart, then something is realy not right with you. You are sick. You really need help.


Don't get me wrong. I tak marah if it serves as a reminder ke apa. Like emails with photos of accidents.. as a reminder to the road users. Tapi, dia ni memang SENGAJA nak kenakan orang. And what's more, I have warned her so many times, do not do such things to me.

If she's really my friend, she would understand. So now, too late. I don't have to tolerate all those things, herself included.

Eventful

A very eventful weekend for me this time...

Let me begin updating by telling you briefly about the accident. On late Friday night, I just got back from somewhere with my SIL and niece... and I decided to stop at a food court nearby our house to buy food. We haven't had our dinner yet, so I stopped to buy something for the two of us.

Barely 5 minutes I left the car, I saw people running towards the road. I suspected there must be some accident. Then I heard people said "dah lari, dah lari". Since I am not the kind of person who likes to run into a crowd to know about things, so I ignored them. Thinking that it was another hit and run accident. What's more, they were focused at a Vitara not very far from where I was sitting. My car (my Mom's actually) was parked further down the road. So I thought it can't be mine.

Then there was this boy who worked at the place where I ordered food ran to me and said "kereta kakak kena langgar" . It was then that I ran like mad towards the car, thinking about my SIL and the baby. There she was, standing beside the car, hugging the baby tightly to her.

Alhamdulillah both of them were safe. She told me that a red Proton Saga, with 5 men inside, hit the Vitara which was parked behind our car. Nobody was inside the Vitara. The Vitara was hit so severely that it moved forward and hit our car. The bumper was quite damaged , but not too bad. She managed to remember the licence plate, though.

Apparently she had called my Dad and a while later he arrived to deal with the situation. I regretted the fact that the owner of the Vitara, who happened to be a police officer, refused to lodge a police report since his car was not affected. Sudahlah awak tu polis, tak mahu ikut procedure undang-undang, boleh ajar pulak kita ni menipu. Ada ke patut dia suruh I report yang kereta I yang dilanggar Proton Saga tu and not his car. LIKE HELL lah I nak buat begitu. I sensed that something must be very wrong with that man.

Apapun I am so thankful that all of us were safe.

EVERYTIME LIKE THAT....

everytime that Jom Heboh Carnival is in town.. I nak balik rumah mesti kena tahan dengan polis.. haiya.. this is the disadvantage of living so close to a public area like Danga Bay... polis pun satu... tengok my licence plate tu sudahlah.. tak payah nak banyak tanya.. nak tengok IC juga ke? tension, tension!! sudahlah jam teruk... not to mention ada bahagian jalan yang memang ditutup due to the upgrading of Jalan Skudai.. apa lagi yang diaorang ni nak buat nak menambahkan sesak jalan tu? Esok-esok sea level naik kat situ padan muka semua tak boleh lalu.

the only consolation is.. hehehe I might be seeing him this afternoon.. kalau berani lah hehehe *wink*