He Wasn't Man Enough For Me

He Wasn't Man Enough For Me
Toni Braxton

Who do you think I am?
Don't you know that he was my man?
But I chose to let him go
So why do you act like I still care about him?

Looking at me like I'm hurt
When I'm the one who said I didn't want it to work
Don't you forget I had him first?

Whatcha' thinking
Stop blaming me
He wasn't man enough for me
If you don't know now is your chance
I already had your man
Do you wonder just where he's been
And I'd be worried about him
Now it's time you know the truth
I think he's just the man for you

(chorus)What are you thinking
Do you know about us back then
Do you know I dumped your husband
Girlfriend
I'm not thinking 'bout him
But you married him :)
Do you know I made him leave
Do you know he begged to stay, with me (with me)
He wasn't man enough for me

Didn't he tell you the truth
If not, then why don't you ask him
And maybe you could be more into him
Instead of worrying 'bout me
And hopefully, you won't find :)
All of the reasons why his love didn't count
And why we couldn't work it out

Whatcha' thinking
Stop blaming me
He wasn't man enough for me
If you don't know now, now is your chance
See, I already had your man
Do you wonder just where he's been
And I'd be worried about him
Now it's time you know the truth
I think he's just the man for you

What are you thinking
Do you know about us back then
Do you know I dumped your husband
Girlfriend
I'm not thinking 'bout him
But you married him
Do you know I made him leave
Do you know he begged to stay, with me
He wasn't man enough for me

So many reasons why our love is through (yeah)
What makes you think he'll be good to you (no)
It makes no sense'
Cause he will never change
Girl you better recognize the game oooohhhh- yeah

What are you thinking (why did he ask me to come back oh)
Do you know about us back then (beggin' me to stay)
Do you know I dumped your husband
Girlfriend
I'm not thinking 'bout him
But you married him
Do you know I made him leave
Do you know he begged to stay, with me
He wasn't man enough for me

Note : Hehe, still here. As I was driving home this morning, I heard this song at Mix FM. It brought back the memories of TWO separate things.

1. This song has hurt the Mighty Jedi Knight of mine. While talking to him, entah macam mana I boleh terlepas kata "because you are not man enough for me". I was joking, as always.. biasalah mulut I mana ada filter. I cakap sebab I teringat this song. And he was sulking for days... Pujuk? Takde mananya.. Bila dia dah macam tu, I biarkan aje. Nanti dia pandailah dia okay sendiri. Nasiblah, orang main-main aje. Sapa suruh terpeleot.

2. This song reminds me of someone yang ingat I still have feelings for her hubby. Heheheheh. I think not many know about this, except maybe my siblings. Memang TEPAT SEKALI, especially those highlighted words. Memang he wasn't enough for me, and memangnya he's just the man for her. Hehehehehehehe.

3. (a) To his Mom ~ Hello Auntie, ATTENTION PLEASE. I am not interested, your son is pure crap.

(b)To his Wifey ~ Girl, he's just the man for you. [to be read with (a) above]

Gone Case

Why I say he is such a crazy man? Because.. well here's why.

Please bear in mind that since knowing him (and that was like, five years back) I TAK PERNAH have any feelings for him. Not one teeny tiny dot. Okay? Do not ask me why I have never had any feelings for him. Benda ni dia sendiri-sendiri. Simply put, kalau berkenan, berkenanlah. Kalau dah sekali tak berkenan, takyah lah nak try-try hari lain. I ni jenis yang kalau dah tak berkenan tu, tidaklah. Kalau suka, tak payah bersuruh, kalau tak nak tak usahlah paksa. That's me. Zero-tolerance.

He has been in touch with me on and off , both in JB and KL. I do not mind having him as a friend or buddy. I did enjoy having him as friend. But that's all there's to it. Masalahnya... dia ni memang gila. Perasan pun ya. I do not need to go into details, tak nak lah spoil your appetite for life kan. Macamana I tak kata dia gila, kan. Bila kita tak pernah indicate directly or indirectly yang kita ni suka dia, macamana lah dia boleh tunjuk jual mahal? Siapa yang peduli?? Do you see what I am saying?

And that, coming from a man aged 39, Ya Allah... Heaven knows. He's been calling me frequently lately, from KL that is. When I started to feel rimas, I did things that were not to his liking, namely calling him at wee hours. Bukan niat nak cakap pun, saja dengki biar dia marah. A few days ago he sent me this sms:

"I dun like u call 1am or 3am or worst 5am. I also dun like when u dun answer n no returning my cal. Understd? Lastly i really dun like if u dun repeat the above mentioned."

To which I replied "very well then". Dia jawab plak "U dun like?" I said, "like what?" And he said "dun like wat i dun like u to do". Dengan penuh takzim, I replied back " 1. I do not understand. 2. I do not care. Wateva."

Ingat dah habislah. Takkk, semalam dia call lagi, nak provoke konon. Since yesterday I bolayan je. Tapi bukanlah nak berpatah arang ke apa. Sebab I rasa I dah boleh agak what he's up to. Tapi on my side, memanglah negative. So to me tak ada apa yang change, he is just still my friend. Tadi baru kejap ni dia call, I angkatlah. Nak tau kenapa I marah sangat?

Sebab tadi orang tua tu konon nak explain kenapa dia sms jangan call pagi-pagi buta. Siap kata, kalau I live in his neighbourhood, susahlah dia kalau I tiba-tiba knock his door pagi-pagi buta. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Hello, pakcik tua bangka, how much does it take for you to understand that orang tak SUKA you??? Do you need me to spell it out? Nak berleter pulak.. lupa ke, you yang sibuk call I selama ni, and not me? Tak ada siapa je perempuan yang nak ketuk pintu rumah you. 100% Guaranteed. Sekarang baru I faham betul kenapa at 39 you are STILL NOT MARRIED. Here's why :

"ITU KEPALA PUNYA DALAM, SATU BESAR PUNYA BATU JUGA SUDAH DALAM SANA DUDUK"

I can be..

Mean, do you say? Yes, I can be mean when I want to.

Memanglah Puaka

You guys, kalau lemah semangat jangan tengok Puaka Tebing Biru. Those who love horror movies should watch it, though. Siapa yang tempat kerja dia carpark di basement pun jangan tengok.

Why? As the title implies, this movie memang sangat PUAKA! I baru habis tengok cd 1.. hehehe terus tutup.. huiyoo... by my standard it is scary and selalu buat I terperanjat. Sudahlah my bedroom windows memang ternganga 24 hours.. siapa yang ada heart problem pun jangan tengok this movie.. memang tersentap tangkai jantung!

Hehehehe... sudahlah begitu, I have another Korean movie yang belum ditonton. Pun horror jugak. You guys mesti kata, dah tau takut buat apa nak tengok? Well, I bukanlah penakut.. I love horror movies, cuma kalau ada yang scene terperanjat tu yang leceh sikit.... besides, you really have to be here to understand what I am saying.. area rumah I ni.. @#$%&+-# sikit.. sudahlah rumah sebelah kanan tak berorang, rumah sebelah kiri selalu kosong walaupun berpenghuni.. rumah hadapan pula belum berpenghuni.. rumah belakang? Penghuni dia dengan hantu boleh main pok amai-amai sama-sama.. sebab same species.

Sincerity

How can a person expects sincerity from someone and is not sincere in return? And call the sincere one 'stupid'? But then again what goes around comes around.

Personally, I have no intention of returning the favor. Besides, apa sangatlah yang I boleh lakukan. I will leave it to God. Allah kan Maha Adil. Untuk apa membuang waktu fikirkan manusia begitu. A complete waste of time. Ikhlas itu adalah rahsia Allah.

Don't think I do not notice. Duly Noted, alright. But I don't see why I should waste my time getting depressed because of people like you. So, keep it up if you like. But don't blame people if you get reactions.

yang satu itu yang jiwa mahu

"jikalau jiwa inginkan satu, yang satu itu yang jiwa mahu"

I 'borrowed' this lovely phrase from my regal sis a long time ago. This was said by a certain regal someone in a very regal place wholly and exclusively owned by my regal sis. I borrowed this with permission and hereby declare that this be my personal tagline. Meaning to say, someone created this lovely phrase and I borrow it. This is not my original phrase.

But in my case, this phrase is every inch applicable. This is to say that when I do want something, then that thing is the only thing that I want, not more not less. Contrary to some people who said they wanted something and yet 'acquired' another thing. Or creature. Or livestock. See, I am not twisted. I am true to my words.

very meaningful, isn't it? those who know, knows. *wink*

Completely Useless

this is to say that the McDonald's at Plaza Angsana Johor Bahru has the lousiest delivery service I have ever known..

at about 2 pm something on Thursday, I made an enquiry on whether or not they could deliver the chicken porridge to my place. That d**n person who answered the call said yes, so I placed an order for that chicken porridge.

I waited until 3 pm something and later called that blessed 1300 number again, trying to find out what happened to the porridge. That s*up*d woman said my order was delivered at 2.30 pm. Memang penipu besar. Then I was put on hold... for 2 times, and was told that they would call me back after checking on the order. And they never called me.

Fine then, so I ordered ANOTHER porridge at 4 something, and still nothing was delivered at 5:15. I asked my sister to call McD this time, to save them from some serious 'explosion'... I was burning with fever, flu and serious coughing... I waited for the porridge since 2 pm... my parents tak ada, the new assistant pun belum pandai masak style kita.. my sis just got back from work..

it's not that I can't cook for myself, but I was so weak..

Back to the porridge.. so my sister Lin ordered a chicken porridge and a double cheese for herself.. and.... a few minutes later, that d*mn McD people called her and said that in actual fact, nobody wanted to send it to our place because they say it was too far from their restaurant.

MY ***! Jauh? Plaza Angsana jauh? My GOD! K*p*la O**k B*p*k dia lah... and why the hell didn't they say so at 2 pm just now?????

That's the delivery service of McDonald's Plaza Angsana JB. I waited for 3 hours for my porridge and then they said my place was too far away and nobody wanted to deliver my order. And my place is only 10-15 minutes away from their place.

Yes, the delivery service and the management of McDonald's Plaza Angsana JB is actually COMPLETELY USELESS AND HOPELESS.