Friday, April 13, 2007

Why this sudden emptiness?

Why, I never had the opportunity to get to know them... my neighbour, the one staying accross the road.. mostly because I was away all the time... and because they do not have any children of my age.. and because.. yeah well I am the 'reserve' type or shy - call it what you like... What little I know about them are based on infos from my family members.. diaorang yang stay kat sini all the time since we moved here in 1999.

His wife was some district engineer... hence the big qovernment quarters... i don't know they have 3 - 4 children. Apparently they are quite berumur.. maybe in their forties... but anak-anak masih kecil.. tak ada yang dah secondary school pun... hey they are cute..

and they love cats, the children.. more than once i bimbang they will accuse me of being lokek sangat nak bagi anak dia tengok my kucing. Yeah, they like to berdiri ramai-ramai di tepi tebing rumah facing my house and shout and wave at my cats. but... when the time comes for people to come home from work, I usually took my cats to the side of the house - purely for safety purposes, I never take any risk after the departure of Berry.
So kadang-kadang tu, while the kids were so excited to see my cats, I feel bad sangat sebab kena pindahkan mereka.. for fear mereka akan kena langgar dengan orang-orang yang balik dari kerja.


Oh, I do not mind at all.. adalah kalanya kalau mereka melambai-lambai I smiled.. tak tau nampak ke tak... tapi tak adalah aku nak melambai balik...

WHY? Tak, bukan sombong! Because yang jaga diaorang tu ayah diaorang. Yes, he is not really working... at least that's what my dad said (in his sermon on the importance of marriage, on how I should not be too choosy because apparently ada juga orang yang husbandnya less educated than the wife but still happy and then quoted the NEAREST example). He has some small business, but he is at home all the time. I think he is a house-husband or stay-home-husband. He is educated, cuma tak bekerja.

Itu tak kisahlah kan... but.. itulah yang buat i serba salah kalau terserempak ngan diaorang di luar rumah. Anak dia punya la melambai.. pastu dia senyum.. kang aku lambai orang kata aku melayan laki orang.. tak lambai GERENTI diaorang terasa... Ada la satu hari, I was driving Faiz to his tuition centre.. agaknya jiran i ngan anak-anak dia ni ingat rumah tu dah tak ada orang kot.. my parents pun tak ada.. anis and folks pun entah ke mana.. so bila i balik rumah semula.. I FOUND ALL OF THEM - the daddy and the children - menyangkung atas jalan tepi rumah aku.. apa kena agaknya.. tengok kucing ka.. ambik berkat ka.. and it was 12:45 pm! Panas berdenting, sanggup diaorang berjalan.. pastu semua pakai 'topi kebun'. The daddy nampak aku terus menyeringai tersengih.. aku rasa dia malu kot.. malu sebab agaknya dia ingat dah tak ada orang kat rumah so line clear la dia nak menyangkung tengok kucing ke apa ngan anak dia..

But Ya Allah it was so panas terik... rajin betul dia melayan anak dia.. Pastu dia senyum-senyum.. i pun senyum, angguk kepala.. acknowledge la kan jiran.. yang anak dia pula, mak datuk... melambai lain menjerit lain nampak aku... so.. dah dekat depan mata.. and since aku pun dalam kereta nak tunggu the gate terbuka (gate tu pun lambat benar nak terbuka) .. so i pun waved to the children and smile...

Bayangkan aku dah drive masuk ke dalam kawasan rumah anak dia still babai lagi.. ish... then by the time i nak masuk rumah, I saw the daddy bawa anak-anak dia balik rumah hehehe..

Tapikan last saturday nampak diaorang dah angkat barang-barang.. curious gak.. diaorang ni refurnish rumah or nak pindah.. puas la i buat-buat tengok kucing, buang sampah and all nak usya kot la ada wife dia ke, atau dia sendiri nak tanya... tapi tak ada chance... this week, the car both ada tapi budak-budak dah tak nampak.. Mom said wife dia kena transfer ke district so diaorang dah pindah sikit-sikit.. alah 45 minutes away saja... but to commute daily the wife tak larat..

And malam semalam, as I was opening the front door to check on my cats.. tiba-tiba terpandang rumah diaorang.. sunyi aje.. kereta masih ada..tiba-tiba je rasa sedih.. sudden emptiness... it's like dah tak ada lagi budak-budak tu bising-bising petang-petang or malam.. sunyi saja.. and I rasa menyesal tak get to know them daripada dulu.. entahlah Mom said the wife ada juga datang our functions.. tak perasan la yang mana...but I have this feeling that she would be nice.. unlike those datin-datin tua yang mulut becok tu... (Datin Diaries kahkahkah)

if ever ada satu chance.. tak kisah lah ada farewell party ke, apa ke.. I would go and say hi to them... sedih la pulak diaorang nak pindah.. I don't know why.. I don't even know them... apasal entah...

tapikan aku tau la mana diaorang nak pindah.. rumah dia mana satu pun aku tau.. sebab we used to live there in the 90s.. anytime boleh tuju hehehehe..macam la aku rajin sangat nak pergi...

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