Birthday

Someone's birthday is coming....

Hmmh, what to get for that someone?

Spec Laughs Out Loud

My Jedi Knight, ladies and gentlemen. Brought to you for the very first time. In full Jedi attire.

Hehehehehehehehehehhehehe. I know you will see this. I minta ampun banyak-banyak.

PEACE!

80s Favs

well, one of my favs.. time 80s dulu tak la.. time tu mana reti appreciate hehehehe... dengar lagu omputeh manjang... later on bila dah mula becampoq ngan ahli-ahli lembaga pengarah senja ni..baruu lah hijab-hijab terungkai *wink*. tapi suka la lyrics dia... simple but very meaningful.

IHSAN MULIA
(Khatijah Ibrahim & Ramli Sarip)

Menitiskan airmata
Runtuh segala keriangan
Kasih kini tiada lagi
Sedih sendu sendiri
Kusendiri

Apa hendak disesali
Apa ingin aku mengganti
Mencurahkan keriangan
Ubat luka hatimu
Di hatimu

Kusanjung dirimu
Ihsan mulia untuk diriku
Kau beri cahaya di kegelapan
Hidup ini

Hasrat hati ini
Telah terpendam sekian lama
Ini bukan simpati hanya kerelaan
Cinta suci

Kita sama telah merasa
Suka duka dalam bercinta
Lupakan kisah lama
Bina hidup bersama
Penuh harapan...

Bukan laa

Yes, I once dedicated this blog to my Jedi Knight.

Yes, I did post entries on Raja Muda Johor here.

But let it be known that the RMJ is in no way my said Jedi Knight.

No, no, no, NO!

My Jedi Knight and Raja Muda Johor are two very different persons.

My Jedi Knight = Forbidden Enchantment.

Raja Muda Johor = Tunku Ismail Ibrahim. A prince of my home state whom I have deep respect for.

why do I say this? because.. from my web tracker, i found somebody searching for this keyword:

the jedi tunku ismail ibrahim raja muda johor DYAM

So, once again, my Jedi Knight is NOT the Raja Muda Of Johor.

Angel

"Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel.."

He used to sing this in my presence.. hehe dan aku pulak buat tak paham je.. yeah so what? Itu satu hal.. suara dia dah la macam orang umur 70 tahun... you know suara 'a real man' yang dah tua.. so deep..huahhahahaha.. macam nak rabak kerongkong i tahan ketawa...

yang paling best, yalah dah nama orang 'senior' kan.. kalau ada part yang lyric tu dia tak berapa sure, dia continue nyanyi da da da da da da da da.. sebijik cam orang tua walaupun dia tak lah berapa tua.. hehehehehehe

hmm.. kalau dah dengar lagu begini, you can always tell what kind of man he is kan...tapi i memang dah lama tau dah.. but so what?? who cares?

Hmm.. i am so jahat today.. not to mention several sms-es i sent to him just now..

oh.. and i told him that maybe i should call him shaggy sebab dia macam shaggy dalam videoclip angel tu... characterwise la.. not looks.. he said "I lebih rela you panggil I Honeybear, daripada Shaggy". ahahhahahahahahahahahahaha


anyone who wants to view the video of this Angel song by Shaggy please click here

For My Jedi Knight

Pada Syurga Di Wajah Mu

(Nash/Lefthanded)

Tuhan sengaja menduga kita

Di mana kesabaran manusia

Engkau isteri yang ku sanjungi

Lambang semangat cinta dunia

Pasti engkau terkenangkan

Peristiwa semalam

Saatku menggadaikan cinta

Pada onak dan duri asmara

Entah di mana akal fikiran

Hingga sesat di jalan yang terang

Ini suratan yang diberikan

Menguji kekuatan jiwa

Waktu engkau ku lupakan

Dalam kemarau cinta

Betapa hatimu rela

Demi melihatku bahagia

Kau menahan segala siksa

Di hati hanya berdoa

Mengharapkan aku kan pulang

Agar terang cahaya

Ku yang hanyut di arus dosa

Di laut ribut melanda

Dan berenang ke pelabuhan

Kasih sayang sebenar

Air mata cinta darimu

Ku menjadi rindu

Pada syurga di wajahmu

Tiada tanda kau berdosa

Biar aku cium tangan mu

Membasuh lumpur di muka

Ku yang hanyut berarus dosa

Di laut ribut melanda

Kau menahan segala siksa

Di hati hanya berdoa

Ku berenang ke pelabuhan

Mencari cinta sebenar

Kan ku tahan apa hukuman

Di hati hanya berdoa

Biar aku cium tangan mu

Sekali lagi bersama

Bukan sekali jalan berduri

Hanya Tuhan yang pasti

Mengerti...

And this one is for you, Jedi Knight hehehe. You tak boleh marah, you kena bersabar. Tuhan sentiasa menduga kesabaran manusia. Tapi kan, kalau you marah pun I tak takut. Look at the lyrics...applicable isn't it? Upps.. maaf zahir dan batin.

Especially For My Honey

My Baby You
by Marc Anthony

As I look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life’s worth a thousand skies

You’re the simplest love I’ve known
And the purest one I’ll own
Know you’ll never be alone

(*)My baby you
Are the reason I could fly
And cause of you
I don’t have to wonder why
Baby you
There’s no more just getting by
You’re the reason I feel so alive

Though these words I sing are true
They still fail to capture you
As mere words can only do
How do I explain that smile
And how it turns my world around
Keeping my feet on the ground

(*)

I will soothe you if you fall
I’l be right there when you call
You’re my greatest love of all
(*)
Arianna I feel so alive

~ I do not care how many times I have posted this song here before.
~ This one is especially for my Honey in England, together with the song being played in this blog.
~ I hope you can listen to this, Honey. I know it's one of your favourites. I can still remember the day you told me about this song.

Laksana Pungguk....

I am getting tired of being like this... I really am...
Don't know how much longer I can hold on...

~ The Owl Missing The Moon ~

What Do I Like About Thee?

What do I like about my Jedi Knight?

This question was thrown to me by my friend not so very long ago.

Let's see..not easy to answer this, you see...

for one, he has a very strong and powerful character.. quite dominant but a comfortable dominant that is..

and he does have a kind heart beneath that tough exterior ... pandangan matanya reflects a pure and beautiful inner self (to a certain extent, of course)

and excellent manners....very gentlemanly.. very, very elegant..

very smart, very intelligent, very brilliant..

also... garang, sometimes arrogant.. and.. has quite a temper (which, I used to think as cute)

the fact that someone who can be so garang can be so gentle and talk so nice... (even more cuter)

yeah but there's something else... uhuh, THAT ONE I DON'T LIKE.. really don't like...

Sekian, Terima Kasih.

Note : Why do I suddenly write this? Sebab macam dah lama tak tulis tentang subject matter.. dah lama sangat terkeluar tajuk hehehe..

Missing Him

Suddenly I miss him. After a long, long time, since I can't remember when.
But what the h*ll. There's nothing I can do about it..
except...perhaps.. this..

there..that's better i guess..never a big deal hehe...
voila.. have a nice weekend... *wink*

EXCLUSIVE INTERVIEW

This is an exclusive interview with Spectacular Wave on the subject of her Jedi Knight.

Question : Spectacular Wave, how are you doing now?
SpecWave : I am fine, thanks.

Question : Any new projects or mission?
SpecWave : You could say that, yes.

Question : Would you like to share it with us here?
SpecWave : Maybe at a later stage.

Question : So, how is this ..Jedi Knight as you call him.. how is he doing at present?
SpecWave : I really have no idea.

Question : How come? I thought he is 'the man of the moment'. You can't be feeling great not knowing how he is..
SpecWave : He is not the man of any moment. Just someone I was fortunate enough to know from a long time ago. As for feeling great, I always believe that one should never let one's happiness depend on other people. *Smiles*

Question : Does he visit your blog from time to time?
SpecWave : I do not know and it doesn't really matter but I did tell him though when I first created the blog. But he is too busy to do Internet surfing, I am sure.

Question : You mentioned in your earlier posts that the blog is dedicated to him. Why do you continue to do it if you do not think he visits your blog?
SpecWave : Because it is my blog. And yes, I dedicate this to the memory of My Jedi Knight. That he visits the blog or not is not the point. The point is, I did make my dedication, and hence that is where my memories are kept. I continue to write simply because that is my blog.

Question : Do you love him?
SpecWave : Love is a big word and subject to me. A very big one. Where my Jedi Knight is concerned, I can only say there was a degree of liking of a certain amount from my side. That was all.

Question : Why do you like him?
SpecWave : Not easy to answer that in one sentence. *Grins*

Question : You do not really care do you, if he's not around. Why is that?
SpecWave : As all of us may already knew, everything we have will eventually leave us, except Him, The Almighty.

Question : Let's just say if you do love him Spec, would you die for him? Would you die for the person you love?
SpecWave : Okay, people tend to say "I would die for the one I love" when he or she loves someone truly, myself included. But then again let's not forget that our lives are not for us to end it. This is to say it's not for us to decide when and for whom we shall die. It's all been written up above even before we were born. So, my answer would be unfortunately, it is not for me to decide.

Question : Back to your blog, I notice you haven't posted any entry on him frequently.Why?
SpecWave : I do write something on him. Not there, though.

Question: What, like, in your diary? Or other websites?
SpecWave : *Garfield Grin*

Question : What would you like to say about him on a negative note, now that you say he's too busy to surf the Internet?
SpecWave : *Grin* He is indeed fat and ugly. And ancient, too.

Question : *Smiles* What if he later finds out about what you've just said? You'd be dead.
SpecWave : 1. No worries, he won't. 2. Even if he does read it, well, truth hurts, that's all. He said that himself, fat and ugly, that is. Tehahahahahaha. There's nothing he can do.

Question : What would you like to wish him on a positive note?
SpecWave : May Allah Bless You. May The Force Be With You.

Question : Would you like to meet him in later days?
SpecWave : Maybe. I don't know. If there's a chance, maybe yes. If not, no.

Question : Should he wishes to continue whatever there was during the last time, would you agree to that?
SpecWave : I really don't think that is going to happen. Anyway, no, I don't think I would agree.

Question : Why?
SpecWave : Because he is ancient and he smells! Of sodden baby diapers! Just Kidding. Actually I don't know.

A big thank you to our Spectacular Wave, and Best Wishes in everything you do.

honey i dah bangun

earlier this morning (monday) tiba tiba teringat many years ago.. when my jedi knight was still 'on air' with me...

that one morning, masa tu tengah semester break.. i was still in bed at 9 something ke 10 macam tu.. suddenly received a text from him... it said "morning honey, i am now in the office' something like that lah..

so I replied something like "morning.. have u had ur breakfast" lebih kurang gitu lah..

came the reply "honey i dah bangun"

and i thought.. ni apa cerita ni... dah kalau kat office tu mestilah dah bangun.. why does he need to tell me that? ke.. dia salah hantar message... dia nak bagitau orang lain kot dia dah bangun, dia 'terhantar' kat i.. apa ni.. dia hantar message to another girl at the same time ke..

well.. i tak kisah la dia nak hantar kat orang lain ke apa.. it's his right entirely.. but just need to know betul ke...

so i send this: "you tersalah sms ke?"

he said "what wrong sms?"

so I called him.. i tanya dia.. apa ni you tersalah hantar sms ke.. dia kata apa yang salahnya.. i kata : you said you are in the office.. then you said you dah bangun.. dah kalau kat office tu.. mestilah dah bangun... hehehe ke you nak bagitau someone else you dah bangun and you tersalah hantar pada I?

he chuckled.. and said "no.. i was asking you.. Honey I dah bangun? "
(Syaitan betul.. memang I time cuti I bangun lambat sikit.. but he always said bangun pagi..)

I said "Oh... okay.." dan lepas tu cepat-cepat aku tukar topic lain dengan selamba.. tanya dia ada banyak meeting ke hari ini.. hehehe SMOOTH!

yang sebenarnya dalam hati tuhan je yang tahu betapa gembiranya when he said "Honey I..." yeeeeeehahhhh! I am his honey! YES! YES! POM-POM! POM-POM! tapi SENGAJA la buat endah tak endah kan.. sebab dia ni memang tersohor keegoannya.. so i am not giving him that satisfaction.. satu inci pun aku takkan beri muka hahahaha... sampai harini dia tak tau.. hohoho sampai hari dia mati pun dia takkan tau hehehehehehehheheheh...

uppsss... jahatnya....

Forbidden Sneak Preview

Excerpts of his sms to me that I wrote down. Will elaborate on it later on.

Preview for what? Rahsia! Takleh cakap! hehehe

Jedi Knight

Haven't written about my Jedi Knight for a long, long, long time. I guess he is out of the country at present. His mobile has been turned off for 3 days now.

Earlier today I thought of how nice and polite he was. Never once would he let me use foul words. Once he kept distant for three days, solely because I said something not pleasant when I scolded him for calling me using my first name. Can't remember what I said now, but on the third day I asked him where he is and whether I was still his honey or not. He said " I am busy. You are still my honey but don't use foul language anymore".


I knew for a fact that he was never too busy to call. He was mad at me, alright, but didn't want to show it. Cool konon-kononnya. Yeah, that was another thing about him, he is always cool and in control. And he always advised me to be cool, being the temperamental person I am. I remember at one time I was so mad at him I was practically shouting at him over the phone. All he said was "Dear, dear calm down. I'll talk to you later". And then he put down the phone and didn't pick it up when I called back immediately. Wise man.


In the early days, one of his first words that I still remember was "You ni cannot be with someone the same age as yours lah, Dear. You kena dengan orang yang 30, 31 macam tu". I said "Why?" Came the reply "Because man at your age ni, baran dia tak hilang lagi". (When he speaks Malay, it always has traces of loghat Penang).

But he was right. I cannot be with a man of the same age as mine or younger. My relationship with one guy before I met Jedi Knight was a complete disaster in every sense.

Well, I am not sure where you are right now, but Be Safe.


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Jikalau Api Mana Puntungnya
Hilang Ghaib Ke Mana Pergi
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