Impian Kasih

Impian Kasih by In Team

Kasih dengarlah hatiku berbicara

Kasih izinkan diriku bertanya

Bisakah cinta bersemi

Mengundang restu Ilahi

Adakah bahagia yang diimpi

Menjadi satu realiti

Kasih kusedari kekurangan ini

Kasih kuinsafi kelemahan diri

Kuingin sunting dirimu

Menjadi permaisuri hatiku

Sebagai isteri yang berbudi

Kebanggaan para suami

Wanita hiasan dunia

Seindah hiasan adalah wanita solehah

Yang akan membahagiakan

Syurga di dalam rumah tangga

Hanya itu yang kuinginkan

Dari insan yang amat kusayang

Damaikanlah resah hatiku

Aku rindu kasih dan sayangmu

Terimalah seadanya

Akulah hiasan pelamin hidupmu

Andainya tiada jodoh

Untuk ke singgahsana

Kupasrahkan segalanya

Kerna takdir yang akan menentukan

Impian kasih

Note : First listened to this song in 2002 @ Tioman, and been loving it ever since. Was driving to town earlier this evening, then dengar lagu ni..itu yang teringat nak post it here.

Watch La Mitosastras....

Last night my rindu terubat jua.. was waiting for the Samarinda slot at TV3, Mitosastras. I don't always follow any series in Samarinda, as I was usually busy at 1030 pm at night, and it was oly for half an hour WITH commercial break. So, leceh sikit.

But I am making effort to watch this Mitosastras, mainly because the previews was really menarik and mysterious. And later I discovered ada Alex Komang (Bang Komang), my Gusti Adipati in PGL. So, mana boleh miss. Also, ada Nasha, and Eizlan. I tak adalah minat sangat Eizlan, but in Mitosastras, he was very matured and macho juga. So another plus factor.

Yang tak best tu, ianya cuma ada from Tuesday to Thursday sahaja everyweek. Friday to Monday.. kerinduan semula..

Those who are looking for something to watch should try to watch Mitosastras. Nampak macam a bit slow but the message is very deep. Ada unsur-unsur mistik like that.

But paling best Eizlan la.. looks so cool. And Ziela Jalil.. so elegant and beautiful.

Kalau Lelaki Handsome...

I found this rather true poem-like thing... from another blog, which is also quoted from another source. The original author is unknown.

Kalau Lelaki Handsome...

Kalau lelaki handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap: woow, cool giler...
kalau lelaki tak handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap: eh perasan bagus...

kalau lelaki handsome berbuat jahat

Perempuan akan kata: nobody's perfect

kalau lelaki tak handsome berbuat jahat

perempuan akan cakap: memang.... muka pun macam pecah rumah!

kalau lelaki handsome menolong perempuan yg diganggu
perempuan akan cakap: wah.. machonya.. macam hero filem!
kalau lelaki tak handsome menolong perempuan yang diganggu
Perempuan akan kata: entah2 kawan dia...

kalau lelaki handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: sepadan sangat...
kalau lelaki tak handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: mesti kena bomoh perempuan tuh!

kalau lelaki handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata: jangan sedih, kan saya ada..
kalau lelaki tak handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata:...(terdiam, tapi telunjuknya meliuk-liuk dari atas ke bawah, patutlah, tengok saja luarannya)...

kalau lelaki handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: perasaannya halus...penuh kasih sayang
kalau lelaki tak handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus menyayangi...

kalau lelaki handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: matching... hebat luar dalam
kalau lelaki tak handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: bang, bosnya mana?...

kalau lelaki handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2 gambarnya tersebar
kalau lelaki tak handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan kata: tak sanggup melihat hasilnya ya?...

kalau lelaki handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap:ini barulah lelaki gentleman
kalau lelaki tak handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap: naluri pembantu, memang begitu....

kalau lelaki handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan cakap: let me be your shoulder to cry on
kalau lelaki tak handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan kata: kuat nangis!! lelaki ke bukan ni?

"Kadang-kadang lelaki kureng handsome ni diperlakukan tidak adil oleh kaum wanita, minta maaflah kaum wanita semua kalo anda terasa, aku akui gak sbb benda ini terjadi gak pd kaum wanita yg kureng cantik... cuba fikirkan lah sejenak kaum lelaki dan kaum wanita semua."

Note from Spectacularwave:

I assure you, the above "Kalau Lelaki Handsome..." is not entirely applicable where I am concerned. Mainly because I do not judge and treat a man according to his looks. Hensem ke, tak hensem ke, cubalah buat 'stunt' yang pelik, gerenti nahas punya, be it di udara, di laut or di daratan.

e.g : Kalau Lelaki Berbuat Jahat (Handsome Or Not)
Spectacularwave akan kata, Jangan Sampai I Nampak (very deep and deadly meaning here)

Kalau Lelaki Bawa BMW (Handsome Or Not)
Spectacularwave akan kata, It's Not Maybach, Hon. (heheh contoh saja)

Kalau Lelaki Menolong Wanita Yang Diganggu (Handsome Or Not)
Spectacularwave akan kata Terima Kasih.

Another thing, I am very temperamental.. so,it really depends on my mood, NOT his looks.

e.g. Kalau Lelaki Pendiam (Handsome Or Not)
Kalau Mood Baik, Spectacularwave akan diam jua. (So what?)
Kalau Mood Kurang Baik, Spectacularwave akan kata You Kena Sampuk, Kah?

Kalau Lelaki Ditinggal Kekasih (Handsome Or Not)
Kalau Mood Baik, Spectacularwave akan kata Apa Ada Hal, Kan.. Takde Hal Punya, Cari Lain La.
Kalau Mood Tak Baik, Spectacularwave akan kata Kalau Itu Salah You Sendiri, Good For You!

Also, pardon my language, I do not take craps in whatever form, so please do not try to be an old-fashioned-bullsh*t artist with me.

e.g. Kalau Lelaki Penyayang Binatang (Handsome Or Not)
Spectacularwave akan kata As Well You Should.

Kalau Lelaki Tak Mau Bergambar (Handsome Or Not)
Spectacularwave akan kata Tak Mahu, Sudah. (apa yang susah sangat hehe)

Powerful Quotes

I received these powerful quotes from my dearest friend and sister :

Human pain does not let go of its grip at one point in time. Rather, it works its way out of our consciousness over time. There is a season of sadness. Aseason of anger. A season of tranquility. A season of hope.

-- Robert Veninga

Character is the basis of happiness and happiness the sanction of character.

-- George Santayana

Thank you, Princess, for giving me strength.

Anjal Mempesona

Weeks ago I read this Lux advertisement and promotion on its latest range of shower gel. I was reading a Malay newspaper, so the ad was in Malay. The shower gels came in various types and names.

There were (in Malay) Putih Anggun, Lembut Manja, and several others, but what really attracted me was Anjal Mempesona. Hehehehe.... really fancy name.. kelakar pun ya... reminds me of Physics in Form 5. Darjah Keanjalan hehehe.

I bought Anjal Mempesona a few days after that. And later I bought other scents too. Suka tengok botol-botolnya.. cute. The English name for Anjal Mempesona turned out to be Uplifting Firm. Not really accurate, isn't it. Anjal Mempesona would be Charming Elastic. Uplifting Firm would mean Pejal Mengangkat.

The smell is very nice and heavenly. Not bad, Cik Anjal.. hehehe.

I am the kind of person who likes to have several types of shower gels with different scents(I bet most women are like this!). In my bathroom, I have at least 3 types of body scrubs, 5 shower gels and at least three other soap bars - goat milk, mangir, rose and a bottle of bath salt. Yes, I like pampering myself and feel comfortable and nice-smelling whenever I am at home. Cousins and friends used to tease me and say I syok sendiri sebab wangi-wangi to please diri sendiri, as I am pretty much the homely type. To this , I can only say, I am sorry, I am not the person who cares about what people say about me, but I do care about what I say to myself.

Soaking in the bathtub is also my favourite, but I don't do it frequently. But no, mengadap cermin berjam-jam everyday is not my thing... and I don't really apply make-ups unless I am attending functions. Reason? Very simple. LAZY. Also, I don't really know how. Once I rajin juga gunakan make-ups.. but it is very time-consuming, and you have to look at the mirror from time to time to ensure it stays fresh. T..a...k.... K...u...a....s...a.

But I am quite particular when it comes to facial care. From time to time, I do facial scrubs, apply mask etc. My skin is the combination type, but Alhamdulillah never face any real problems with it. Maybe because I started as early as 16 to cleanse, tone and moisturise my face. Don't really use moisturiser though, makes my skin oily and will create tiny spots later. Sometimes, I apply fresh tomato juice to my face - they say it can help reduce the oiliness of the skin. (if there's such word as oiliness hehehe...)

Body Lotion? Yes, on a daily basis.

A glimpse on our Cik Anjal...

Forbidden Sneak Preview

Excerpts of his sms to me that I wrote down. Will elaborate on it later on.

Preview for what? Rahsia! Takleh cakap! hehehe

Adui!

Know what that is?? My arm! Scratched mercifully by Blossom! Adui! Dui! Dui! Dui!

I have many of those on my hand and on my leg! In fact there's a 6cm-long scar on my leg, thank God it's just a fine line. Yes, I wear seluar panjang, not shorts! Kuku dia sangat tajam.

Currently there are two scars on my left arm. HABIS TANGAN AKU!!

Don't Know, Don't Talk La.....

A once-prominent figure in the Malaysia Inc. told me recently that if I am aware that a man is married, I should withdraw. He was referring to my previous relationship with his friend. I told him that I DID BRUSH HIS FRIEND OFF SEVERAL TIMES AND HE WAS THE ONE WHO KEPT CONTACTING ME.

This man ignored that fact and continued to say "No, no you should withdraw". He was adamant that I am the one who should take the blame.

Hah! What is this? Do women have to be the guilty ones in this case all the time? Especially when the woman in question has exercised very sincere, sound judgment and care in the first place?????????

If his friend is indeed a sincere and honest person, he would clarify this fact, admit his mistake and clear my name!

So what, I am the one who should withdraw, and you close your eyes on your friend's honorable behaviour, one that could easily be instilled by your goodself, judging by the occassional trips to Batam, Singapore and God knows where!

I imagine, his being close to me would pose some problems to you, ain't it? Difficult for you to bring him here and there, huh? Did I indirectly steal his attention from you, considering the fact that he used to tell me you were 'his other half' (my goodness)?

I vow, if God grant me one more chance, I promise I will at least try to encourage him to change that habbit! I promise I will. I will do that, in return to his being nice to me last time. In return for what good things that he taught me. May Allah bless this intention of mine. Aamin.

May I ask one question. Why are you so mad at me?

Let me say this much. I know not who your daughter is, and who her ex-husband was, and what was their reason for divorcing. If it's because of the involvement with a third party, and if your disapproval of me having relationship with your friend adalah kerana you membenci dan dendam dengan ladies that befriend married men, then I am truly sorry. Because my relationship and your friend is not like others... no money, no status, no raw desires, no hatred, no conceit and no prejudice factors were involved. Our relationship was not based on those reasons. Before you point your fingers at anyone, do have a look in the mirror. Don't think an act of betrayal will just pass like water under the bridge. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND. Jangan nak mendendami orang tak tentu arah. Lainlah kalau your friend tu your menantu.. My relationship with him tak ada kena mengena langsung dengan your daughter or her husband. Please do not be pathetic and over-sensitive.

Nobody knows the truth behind my relationship with him except one person other than myself. And Allah. So do not simply judge and punish people.

The Dream

I dreamt of him yesterday. It wasn't good. He was talking to my parents. Eating together with them in a function. I was there too, at another table. He left early, and he didn't see me. Meaning to say, didn't even notice I was there.

Hope it means nothing. Been thinking of him a lot lately. Teringat is the right word.

I seek refuge in Allah from every bad things, bad luck and bad future. Amin.

Kenangan Terindah

Kenangan Terindah - Samson

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Note: I like this song. Also, Dealova and Januari.

Movies

I resolve to watch two movies and one tv series soon - Nana Tanjung, Casino Royale and Supernatural. Seen the ad in TV. Tak sabarnya! I have never missed the anak mami series. Anak Mami The Movie, Mami Jarum, Mami Jarum Junior, Anak Mami Kembali, I have seen them all. And sooo not gonna miss Nana Tanjung hehehehe. Cannot wait too to see the new Bond in action. Sunday night - Supernatural. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bestnya!!!!!

Jedi Knight

Haven't written about my Jedi Knight for a long, long, long time. I guess he is out of the country at present. His mobile has been turned off for 3 days now.

Earlier today I thought of how nice and polite he was. Never once would he let me use foul words. Once he kept distant for three days, solely because I said something not pleasant when I scolded him for calling me using my first name. Can't remember what I said now, but on the third day I asked him where he is and whether I was still his honey or not. He said " I am busy. You are still my honey but don't use foul language anymore".


I knew for a fact that he was never too busy to call. He was mad at me, alright, but didn't want to show it. Cool konon-kononnya. Yeah, that was another thing about him, he is always cool and in control. And he always advised me to be cool, being the temperamental person I am. I remember at one time I was so mad at him I was practically shouting at him over the phone. All he said was "Dear, dear calm down. I'll talk to you later". And then he put down the phone and didn't pick it up when I called back immediately. Wise man.


In the early days, one of his first words that I still remember was "You ni cannot be with someone the same age as yours lah, Dear. You kena dengan orang yang 30, 31 macam tu". I said "Why?" Came the reply "Because man at your age ni, baran dia tak hilang lagi". (When he speaks Malay, it always has traces of loghat Penang).

But he was right. I cannot be with a man of the same age as mine or younger. My relationship with one guy before I met Jedi Knight was a complete disaster in every sense.

Well, I am not sure where you are right now, but Be Safe.


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