Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Deepest Grief

Mengapa terjadi, kepada dirimu

Aku tak percaya kau telah tiada...



As I was getting ready to go to work today, I saw my Dad reading the newspaper at our dining area. I tanya dia, dia tak pergi checkup ke, since my Mom pergi for hers today. He said no, just Mom. He just came back from sending my Mom. At that moment his cellphone rang. When he uttered the word Innalillahi Wainnailaihirojiun, I started to stare at him. His expression has changed completely. The next thing he said "tak payahlah pangil doktor. report polis aje. sakit tua". Just as he was hanging up, I fired a question to him. "Siapa meninggal?" He looked at me for a moment, speechless. Then he said "Tok Abah dah meninggal". His father. My grandfather.


The next thing I know was, I made several calls to my siblings, went to office and applied for compassionate leave, went to florist get some flowers and rushed to Skudai with my brother and sister. Upon arrival, jenazah Tok Abah dah diangkat ke tengah rumah. Orang dah mula datang berziarah. My father's siblings were mostly on their way from KL. Arrangements were made and the pengebumian was to be done after Zohor prayers.


My Tok Abah was an imam for masjid Kampung Melayu Skudai, Batu 10 for years and years. According to my grandmother, he passed away in his sleep, during bersahur time. Sebab, sebelum bersahur, Tok Mak lihat dia still breathing... come morning bila Tok Mak went to check on him, dia dah tak bernafas lagi. That was when my grandmother called my uncle and he, in turn called my Dad.


Tok Abah has been unconscious since 3-4 days before. Sebelum tu alhamdulillah, boleh duduk, berbual, naik wheel chair, berselera makan. He has been that way for about a year. Kalau tak silap, dia ada lung complication. And Gout. He used to be hospitalised last year. But since 3-4 days before passing, dia sudah terbaring, tak mahu makan, tak sedar, hanya jarinya bergerak-gerak membilang zikir. Cuma sekali, dia bertanya pada Tok Mak, katanya, agak-agak, berapa orang boleh sembahyang dalam rumah kita ni? He knew.


Yang berziarah datang tak henti-henti. One lady came to my grandma and offered condolences. Paling sedih bila nak balik, the lady couldnt refrain herself from sobbing. She said... "saya belajar mengaji dengan pak imam sampai saya pandai..." I had tears in my eyes.


When my father, as his eldest son, beri ucapan selepas solat jenazah di rumah, I feel like my heart being ripped. He cried. He couldnt bring himself to deliver whatever he wanted to say. Banyak kali, okay. Bukan sekali.


Macamanapun, pengurusan dan pengebumian berjalan dengan lancar. Jenazah disembahyangkan dua kali, di rumah dan di masjid. Bacaan talkin disempurnakan oleh seorang tokoh agama tempatan. Tok Abah memang pernah berpesan, jika dia meninggal, dia mahu jenazahnya diuruskan oleh orang berkenaan. Alhamdulillah, harapannya telah ditunaikan.


Semoga Allah Taala mengampunkan dosa-dosanya, dan menempatkan dia di kalangan mereka yang dikasihiNya, Insya Allah. Dijemput pergi pun pada bulan Ramadhan. Betapa Allah menyayangi dirinya.... Al-Fatihah.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Spec Laughs Out Loud


My Jedi Knight, ladies and gentlemen. Brought to you for the very first time. In full Jedi attire.
Hehehehehehehehehehhehehe. I know you will see this. I minta ampun banyak-banyak.
PEACE!

A(H1N1) Alert: JB people, may I have your attention, please!

From The Star Online, August 2, 2009:

A (H1N1): Tests confirm 11-year-old boy is sixth A (H1N1) - related death

PUTRAJAYA: An 11-year-old boy who died at 8.30 on Sunday in Johor Baru from an iflammation of the lung and heart was also found to have been infected by the Influenza A (H1N1) virus, making him the six death in Malaysia related to the virus.

Health director-general Tan Sri Dr Mohd Ismail Merican said the boy was admitted into the Sultanah Aminah Johor Baru Hospital on July 29 with fever but showed no other signs of having the flu.

He was rushed into ICU on July 30 and confirmed to have the virus on Aug 1, Dr Ismail said in a statement on Sunday, adding that 39 cases of the flu were reported Sunday.

The boy's death follows the death of a 10-year-old in Perak on Friday whose post mortem tests revealed that she too had the flu, Bernama reported.

This made her the confirmed fifth death for the flu in the country.

Dr Ismail said tests on phlegm taken from the girl by the Institute of Medical Research (IMR) showed that the girl from Bagan Serai, Perak had the H1N1 virus.

"According to information received, the girl had been ill since July 27 but she did not suffer from any breathing problems when she received outpatient treatment at a private clinic," he said in a statement here Saturday night.

Dr Ismail said on the night of July 28, the girl had complained of breathing difficulties and received treatment at a Bagan Serai health clinic the next day and while receiving treatment, she was in stable condition and did not complain of breathing difficulties or cyanosis and was given outpatient treatment including antibiotics and cough medicine.

However, on Friday morning at 3am, she complained of breathing difficulties, fever and cough before arriving at the Bagan Serai Health Clinic for treatment but while receiving treatment, she passed out and was pronounced dead at 5.30am.

The post mortem done at the Alor Setar Hospital revealed that she had died of severe pneumonic changes.

He added that the girl's parents had also undergone tests and cleared of any disease while her five other siblings had slight breathing difficulties but were in stable condition.

Dr Mohd Ismail added that initial investigations revealed that there were no reports of Influenza Like Illness in the area, including the school where the girl was from but the district Health Department had been asked to monitor the situation closely. - Bernama

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Attention, please JB and Johor people!! Referring to the news report above, the death is caused by the influenza A H1N1 virus. The sixth death.

So, please do not treat it as a mild outbreak anymore. PLEASE.

Just sharing something. Last week, I went to get the Inluvac 2009 shot, as recommended by my doctor. Me, my Dad and my niece. And the next day my Mom and brother followed suit. It costs only RM 70 per person. And it's a 2-in-1 vaccination. One is the H1N1, and another one is the one you get before you go perform Haj in Mecca. Tak ingat dah apa namanya. H2N3 ke apa tah. Insya Allah by next week our family members semua dah vaccinated. Problem is, the vaccination tu cepat sangat sold out. So kena book awal-awal. Price range from RM 70-RM 85.

You guys, it is highly recommended for you to get the shot. Doctor says it covers 90% of the risk of being infected.

For me, memang I yang voluntarily nak get the vaccination. Traumatic when I see people everywhere looking weak (probably from the flu), and wearing face mask. Scary! And as with other states, schools have been closed here in JB in view of the students suffering from flu. Well, they know not what type of flu yet, but it's a precautionary steps la kan to prevent things from getting worse.